SeTtLiNg In.........

hhhmmm... okay time for another UPDATE....

I've been working here for a month now.... to be specific... a month and 10days.... hehehe... and I've been w/ the SERVICE TEAM for almost the whole time.... My First job description was as an Administrative Assistant but now I have evolved to Service Personnel major in Installation.. hehehe...

During the first days here at work I used to bug my SUP/TL to hand me something to do.. the only antogonist I had was Mr. Sleep.... and so I was asked to give a hand at inventory... then next i was the back-up of the current back-up personnel in the service team... so relaxed... no pressure... always had time to check my mails then.... but now????? i'm up to my elbows w/ installation scheduling... mind you, i'm not whining... it's actually fun... filling up schedules w/ work orders, tracing routes and trying to juggle 5-7 technicians a day... and what makes it more challenging?????? our counterpart who's handing me what job to do is in California and he's up to his elbows w/ his own stuff as well... whew!!!! imagine that!!! i guess it's time to put my being an OC into good use....

perks? -good humored people to talk w/ both here in the office and at our main office in Fresno as well as after working hours...

by the way.. if i get silent and you're wondering what's up w/ me.. just poke me in the ribs... i might be drowning w/ work already.. hehehe...

MisSinG YoU...

.....We have been together for a couple of years now and the bond that we have, I could proudly say, is strong... Our friendship is real!.. I still remember the oath we took that no matter what, we will still remain friends... and still it remains in my heart even if tears fall from my eyes a lot...

..... Lately.. you don't speak to me.. you avoid meeting up w/ me... I tried to run after you.... but the more you run away.... it makes my heart ache when i think about it... you may not believe me... but the thought of you detaching is painful.... it's like looking at a clear blue sky that has but one dark cloud.. however way you look at it.. you can't deny the presence of that dark cloud...

..... I wish I can take away the clouds so that I can have a clear view of you.... but I can't... because that cloud is as much part of my sky as the sun... I need it because it brings me the promise of RAIN....which wipes away my thirst when I'm parched......

..... I need both the SUN and the RAIN to survive... I CAN'T CHOOSE ONLY ONE...

..... why am I writing this????? because I also can't deny that I MISS YOU MUCH FRIEND!!!!

Making You Cry....

.....Everytime I see you stare into space I don't know what to feel... somehow I get the feeling that something is bothering you, yet when I ask you outright you always say that you are okay.. whenever I ask you what you are thinking you say "wala lang".. sometimes I can accept that but there are times that I can't.... You thinking and staring into space with that sad kind of look in your face worries me.. it's not that I want to know everything you do or think.. that I want to invade your entire space... I know that even I have my own secrets that I can't tell you eventhough we are very close... It's just that it bothers me too when I know something is bothering you.. I want to understand... 'coz I care for you much..

.....Now, you try to hide it.. Not letting me catch you stare at the ceiling.. closing your eyes and making me think that you are already sleeping... yet I know that your mind is still running... embracing whatever you are feeling to yourself.... i have to let you be... .....You taught me how to slowly release my pain... to let go most, if not all, of my bottled up frustrations and emotions..... shaking up the walls that I created around me... and now looking at your troubled face........ I can't help but try to share the load that you are carrying on your shoulders... just like the time that you did that for me...

.....I am not a very patient person when rubbed the wrong way.. sarcasm and a bit of derision seeps into the act... those around me can attest to that...... Sometimes I try to ferret out the information from you... and almost always i blow my top and make you cry.... making you feel guilty eventhough I was the one who started it... .....I'm sorry for making you feel guilty.. I'm sorry for making you cry... I guess all I can do now is to wait for you to open up to me.. and waiting is not one of my strongest points... but what else can I do????

.....I just want to see you smile again... to see laughter in your eyes again.... I really wish I can...