JANUARY 2010

I know I've been silent since November..
my life's been crazy and it's just recently that somehow i had enough time and inspiration to write again..

1st off, mom's 1st chemo cycle was last Jan. 8. luckily not much bad reaction... she just experienced vomiting 3days after the chemo. lasted for 2 days.. after that she wants to go places as if she didn't undergo chemo.. she got bored just staying at home.. then she gets easily irritated and argues w/ dad almost everyday.. and it's draining me... badlungon sad kaayo akong mom.. haaayyy.. pwede pa lang makigbaylo ay! akoy mama nya akong mom ang anak kay nabunalan na guro.. but don't get me wrong.. i love my parents.. :)

2nd chemo cycle will be on Feb. 5... hopefully all goes well.. even now she's starting to loose her hair and is worried about it.. i keep telling her that it's ok and that it'll grow back and not to worry about it.. it's her chance to show off her new hats and scarves.. :)

then just last week or so we learned that my dad also has a health problem that needs operation. but at least it's not as immediate as my mom's so we're planning to have his operation after mom's chemo cycles.

honestly, didn't want to write about this... but seeing a friend yesterday by chance has triggered my emotions.. and here i am..

i was really happy yesterday when i saw my friend eventhough his first words were "BING!!!! You are so big!" w/ the matching facial expression.. hahaha.. it was sooo him.. then he opened up his arms and i hugged him.. it was the 1st time that i hugged him @ the center of a busy mall and i think it's the first time that he offered to be hugged... hehehe.. it has been a while since i last saw and talked to him. i know i am wrapped up in my world and it's the same w/ him.. and to think that meeting was just like for 5mins. 'coz he had to go eat and i had to go buy my mom's meds and to look for a fan but "wham!. .great impact!". it made me feel secure in our friendship and it made me happy... i was tired and i think it was not the usual "tired after a day's work"... it made me emotional that i felt like crying while i was still at the mall.. i realized that i needed his hug and that i missed my friend... and i had this big silly smile until i got home.. 'til now i get teary eyed when i think about it.. :) all i can say is "thank you friend"..