mE, BoRa, AND mY nEW jOB

It's been 14 days since Feb. 15, 2008... and it's just now that i have the time to write what happened since then....

To start off... we've been planning a Bora trip since last year... bought our airline tickets months ahead as well as paid for our accomodation... and then came feb. 14! Valentines Day! My Mom's birthday! A day just before our long awaited flight to Boracay - the summer getaway.... schedules were already finalized.. bags already packed... roommates already planned... then i received a call from Karel... informing me that i have been scheduled for a job interview 8am on Feb 15 and for what job position???? she does not have any idea... waaaaahhhhh.. but at least it's in the morning so i can still squeeze it in my almost airtight sched... now comes the jittery part... TO GO or NOT TO GO to the interview... hmmm... naaahhhh... too good a chance to pass up even if i don't know what job position i'm vying for... so, decided... i went ahead w/ the job interview... w/ palms as cold as ice... and heartbeat as fast as a train... MY NORMAL JITTERY SELF... after i was interviewed, i was then asked to report on Monday! wow! what a surprise! I now have a new job!!!! but i didn't have the time to let the good news sink in... had to pick up a friend and dash to the airport to catch the flight for Bora....

BORA!!!! HAD A BLAST!!! fine white sand and clean beach.... cool waters and rumbling waves... good food -amazing creppes.... banana boat ride.... and a very nice view... it was worth it!!!

NEW JOB!!! -waaayyyyy lesser stress.... so far... nice environment... isa ra jud ang kontra... duka!!!! since night shift man nga work.... coffee addict lang japon ko.... as well as OC.. and i'm hopefull that i'll be staying long here...

... and i'm happy that at last i'm pulling my career back on track...

Pinched

...........everytime i talk to him i feel light and bubbly... even if the words that we are sharing draw tears to my eyes.. it may be tears of happiness.. it may be tears of sadness.. but still, i have this warm feeling inside.. the notion that somebody cares for me.. and i get the feeling of security and contentment.. i know where i stand.. and he's teaching me to see my worth and to love myself.. so i know deep in me, that i am special to him... i'm grateful and happy.. yet even though i have this knowledge... every time i see him give attention to somebody else... give time to somebody else... i get a little pinch.. a pinch that elicits scattered thoughts.. man! i don't know what i'm feeling... i don't understand it.. i don't know how to react... and i don't know what to do with it.. i just know that there's that little pinch...
.......................sh@#$!!! and slowly i realized that this is what they call JEALOUSY...

A QUIP ON LONELINESS

.....Loneliness is such a difficult enemy... you wouldn't know when it will attack... it kinda just sneaks up on you and bite you when all your guard is down... even if you are surrounded by people, there are still times that you wouldn't even feel their comfort... there's just this chill that won't be shaken off no matter how much you try... it feels like your heart is being crumpled and you are drowning in your own misery....

Good Point!

"Sometimes, fate has a cruel way of putting things together. Maybe it's better if people just give up when there's no point in fighting for something anymore. When the ship has finally sailed, only a fool would go after it when it’s already miles away. But sometimes, it’s a lot better to be a fool to go after what we want & need, rather than to regret everything in the end because we never even tried..." -Capt. Jack Sparrow

Taking Stock

2008 -> Year of the RAT with the lucky color green - signifying a new beginning, a fresh start of the cycle... what an apt time for me to establish a new me... but before that I think I'm gonna need to take stock of my own self....

hhmmmm... I know for a fact that I'm not as uptight as before.. I can even sometimes say nga latagaw nakog utok... hehehe.. i guess it's my turn now to have that kind of description labeled on me... but sometimes... somehow... with my being latagaw og utok I find peace and contentment.. sometimes ra pud coz there are times that my choleric self aserts itself and I get impatient when thoughts of stagnating come into my mind and I know that I still have a lot of things to finish and accomplish.. but eventhough it seems that latagaw nkog utok I know that I still have my brain inside this head of mine... I may not be able to answer your questions right now or my answers may not be what you would have expected me to give out... but rest assured that the stuff that makes me who I am underneath is still intact...

My First

Yeeepeee!!!! I now have my own blogspot courtesy of Kai!!! Thanks a bunch Kai!! mwahhh...

Hmmm.. This would be my first and now I don't know what to write yet... I haven't slept and it's already the wee hours of the morning... c'mon brain.. work!!! hehehe