Making You Cry....

.....Everytime I see you stare into space I don't know what to feel... somehow I get the feeling that something is bothering you, yet when I ask you outright you always say that you are okay.. whenever I ask you what you are thinking you say "wala lang".. sometimes I can accept that but there are times that I can't.... You thinking and staring into space with that sad kind of look in your face worries me.. it's not that I want to know everything you do or think.. that I want to invade your entire space... I know that even I have my own secrets that I can't tell you eventhough we are very close... It's just that it bothers me too when I know something is bothering you.. I want to understand... 'coz I care for you much..

.....Now, you try to hide it.. Not letting me catch you stare at the ceiling.. closing your eyes and making me think that you are already sleeping... yet I know that your mind is still running... embracing whatever you are feeling to yourself.... i have to let you be... .....You taught me how to slowly release my pain... to let go most, if not all, of my bottled up frustrations and emotions..... shaking up the walls that I created around me... and now looking at your troubled face........ I can't help but try to share the load that you are carrying on your shoulders... just like the time that you did that for me...

.....I am not a very patient person when rubbed the wrong way.. sarcasm and a bit of derision seeps into the act... those around me can attest to that...... Sometimes I try to ferret out the information from you... and almost always i blow my top and make you cry.... making you feel guilty eventhough I was the one who started it... .....I'm sorry for making you feel guilty.. I'm sorry for making you cry... I guess all I can do now is to wait for you to open up to me.. and waiting is not one of my strongest points... but what else can I do????

.....I just want to see you smile again... to see laughter in your eyes again.... I really wish I can...